Hasn't really been posting for close to a month . How should I start everything ? To me , everything is in a mess now , my studies , my love life , my friendships . Everything seems to be on the rock for me now .

I can no longer see what I really wants , and what is really ahead of me . I can no longer see who is beside me when I needed someone badly , I no longer know who are my true friends , everyone seems to be a hi-bye friend to me now . Just a hi and a bye and left .

Seriously , what am I suppose to do ? I am really at a lost , I don't know what should I do . I can't choose to be who I am , I am just who I am .

I am really very tired of changing myself just to fit into every group , making everyone hang out with me just because I change for them , I change because of them .

I needed true friends who can accept me for who I am and not what I am .

-lynlonelygurl-