Sunday, February 20, 2011
Alright,since I will be away for camp for the next 2 days,I shall spend some time updating this little space first.I shall start from Thursday instead,since I had some memories on Thursday and quite a number of it on Friday itself.
Thursday went to school as per normal,did the same old thing again.The moment lesson started,had a slight chat with Mr Abdillah(I hope I spelled his name correctly :x).I felt that his words really made a lot of sense,but it just don't seems to get into my head.I really thank him for the words that he said to me,but I really need quite a number of time before I can stop all that I'm doing as I had really fallen too deep in.Sorry.
Friday was kinda of a weird day for me?I don't really know how to explain what I mean by that,I just felt so.
Early in the morning,went to school as per normal,did the same old thing over and over again.Lesson was kinda okay for me?But to be frank,nothing seems to get into my head,because my whole mind was filled with only him,nothing else but him.
After lesson,I decided to complete my maths homework first as I did not want to being homework to school on the day of camp,the feeling is sucks.Sitting at the position that I sat,I managed to see you quite a number of time,I really like it a lot.
After that,went for training.To be frank,training seriously _ _ _ _ _! :@ I seriously agree with what ahem said about the _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _! :@ They seriously pissed people like me off a lot,come on larrh,I give you face then address you as _ _.Please do not think that you are very big or something,give you face then call you that,if not you are just a rubbish to me,I'm not saying one person,but the whole group of you.Check out the meaning what is a ear stick and what is a ear stud before scolding or screaming like a mad dog at people.I kinda of pity you,because you don't even know the differences and said it out so loud.* EMBARRASSED!* Actually I can choose to make you embarrassed you even more by telling you the differences in front of the whole squad,but I decided not to,because you are already very embarrassed.And please,shouting does not means that you win,it only means that you are a person with no brain and thinks that everything can be solved by shouting. _ _ _ _ _! I never mention any names,so do not assume that you are the one that I am saying or mentioning about.
Forget about whatever that took place earlier on.After training,headed home and get change and headed down to Joses place for cell group meeting.Cell Group Meeting was simply awesome,presence of God was there.It really touched me really deep,thanks Min Qi Mummy! :) After that,stayed at Joses place for a while and headed home.
Had meeting with Pastor MJ on Saturday afternoon,before service started.Presence of God was there,meeting was simply awesome! :) Thanks Pastor MJ! :) Had service after that,service was kinda of long for this week,but it was worth well,because it was mainly about our new building that causes the delay.I'm looking forward to our new building! :)
Supposed to head to North area of fellowship,but due to the time,we did not manage to do it,so headed to Tampines 1 instead.Had HTHT with Shimin! :) I enjoyed it a lot,and thanks Shimin for the words that you said to me,I will try my best to do it :) Thanks anyway! :)
After that,headed to look for brother and headed home.Sorry to those two who stayed at the playground like ah hai,sorry,I really never expected things to become like that,I'm very sorry.
-lynlonelygurl-
I am not looking forward to camp at all,having camp outside school means that I won't be able to see you.I will rather have lessons in school than having camp,at least I still have the chance to see you in school.I miss you a lot! :(
Dear God,I need protection,love,courage,strength.
♥♥| 2/20/2011 03:56:00 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
After all that took place,I'm tired of everything.
Do not try to contact me through my phone for this few days,I'm uncontactable.Don't need to ever try,just leave me alone.
-lynlonelygurl-
♥♥| 2/15/2011 11:33:00 PM
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Alright,since I'm chatting with my cousin on facebook now,and since I am wasting some time,I shall update this dead blog.
It has been a long day for me,started my day at 6.30am and ended it only at 1am plus.Went to school as per normal,first half day was kinda of okay,kinda of happy due to some reasons?I shall not mention anything here,I will mention it in my private blog.
Second half of the day was totally ruined!All thanks to training!I don't know why,I'm beginning to dislike the people there,dislike turning up to that place.The people there,out of 100%,only 10% deserves my respect.The rest of them don't even deserve it.Forget it,I shall not mention anymore things here.All I can say is that,after today training,more and more Cadet Leaders are in my lists of DISLIKE AND HATE!
After training,headed home by bus.Happened to met Esther in the bus,but never talk to her,sms with her :) Can't believe that she actually had the chance to see the cui image of me :O
After that,headed down to Joses' place for cell group meeting.Word was simply awesome,I had a feeling that the sermon was meant to drop me indirectly.I will really need some time to reflect about it all.
After Cell Group Meeting,we 'lao yu sheng' at Joses' place.After that,slacked at Joses' place till 11plus,close to 12.
Walked to Tampines 1 there with Grace,had a slight chit-chatted session with her,before the both of us headed home.
-lynlonelygurl-
I am very disappointed with your actions.I can understand that you are going through a hard time now,I am going through one too,but...Never mind,forget it,I don't want to mention it anymore.From this very moment onwards,I had decided to leave you on your own.I don't want to be someone that when you can't look for others then you think of me,then you come and look for me.And if you manage to find others,you will just leave me alone like nobody business,like you never once know me.Forget it,I'm tired of this kind of life.Take good care of yourself,I won't be there for you.
Valantines Day is 2 days away....I want to buy something for you and give it to you,but I don't have the courage to give you,and I am in no position to do that.The smile that you left in my heart today,is very nice and I will always remembered that.I don't want the day when you started to avoid me come,I won't be able to take it.
♥♥| 2/12/2011 01:26:00 AM
It doesn't mean that whatever your close friends tell you are the truth.At times,they might tell others something that they don't tell you even though they keep saying that you are their close friends,close sisters are whatsoever.Although they might be your close friends,but still,have to be mindful of whatever they said to you,they might not really mean what they said.
At times,they tend to hide something from you,they might think that by not telling you,they wont hurt you or anything.But,stop and think about it,what if they were to find out the truth by themselves or others came to told them about it,wont it be more hurting,wont it be more hurtful?If you guys really mean what you say by close friends,you should share whatever you are going through with them and not keep them in the dark.Stop saying that whatever you do,you are preventing them from being hurt.The fact is that you are hurting them even more than anyone else.It is just that you did not even realised it.
Forget it,I'm tired of every single thing that took place,I'm tired of everything that I had heard.From this moment onwards,I will never treat all the words that I heard seriously.Similar incident had took place 2 to 3 times already,I'm hurt many many times,I can no longer take it anymore.I'm deeply hurt...
-lynlonelygurl-
Dear God,I need protection,I need love.
♥♥| 2/07/2011 07:02:00 PM
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
In a few hours time,it will be Chinese New Year :)
Nothing much to type here,so for more updates,read my private blog if you are invited! :)
Wishing all the Chinese,Happy Chinese New Year! :)
-lynlonelygurl-
Dear God,I need strength. ♥♥| 2/02/2011 07:44:00 PM
