Written on 25 February 2010,Thursday

How is the feeling like of walking out of school alone,walking to the bus stop alone and taking bus back home alone?Well,I had experienced all this in a day.Normally,I will walk out of school,bus stop with the girls,but sad to say,they all had cca today.

Alicia and Ke Xin have choir today while Joy and Huining have basketball training today.It seems so weird to me that like the girls are having their ccas today while I dont have mine and when i,m having my cca,they are not having theirs.Yupp,its true that I still have my squadmates with me.

Although during break time we will sit together and joke and spend time with one another,but,I just feel that I am drifting away from my squadmates.I dont know why I have this kind of feeling,but I just feel that.Maybe just being sensitive,I just feel that my squadmates that sat and joke with me during break time,are not really because they want to sit with me,but just for the sake of doing so.I dont know why,I just felt so.

Well,I not only have this feeling,I also feel that I'm drifting away from my schoolmates.It is like,ya,they will find topic to talk about or keep the conversation going,but its just like,no matter how I tried,I still cannot squeeze into the conversation and keep it going with them.I also felt that some of my friends are not truly want to be-friend with me,they just make friends with me so that they can make fun of me and think that I wont treat it seriously.Although I dont say much or dont even say when I'm laughed at,but that does not mean that I dont mind and allow them to carry on what they are doing.Well,everytime they laugh at me because of something,I dont say anything but deep down in my heart,I'm dripping blood/tears.

Alright,I dont have the mood to post pictures.I will post it other time..

-lynlonelygurl-